Mind Ramp Games!
I’m not too sure if I’m a human or a person who wishes to live through her dreams.Well,i was a born human and reared to be a person who naturally had to go through ordeals to maintain a lively package for herself. Decades have passed and i tried to pull up to live my etching dreams but trust me none of them have come true. My question still remains..is life all about this?
I, being a human or a person or whatever one would like to call me(being so immune to the art of criticism…be it my teacher or friend) there has always been sense of guilt inside me. I believe i have never got things right even though I really wanted to. I’m still ticking in the state of art, which deeply hits my mind and soul…
Thinking hard on that i know one thing for sure that God perfected none and thus gave a life which sometimes is meant to pity on or the other way round it turns out to be a blessing for some. There are slight variations in the process of a life cycle which ultimately confides in our artificial thinking over powered thinking process which God knows is good for us or is it something really awful to even think about.To an extent it naturally curves out the theory of life which demands to be cared for…
With every passing day my life paved way to my building acquisitions.I decline the fact that that I don’t build dreams at the back of my mind. I’m actually on the verge of hitting the reality and suddenly bumping in the truth that builds rare chances to act like a real person. From the very beginning my career,my ambitions put me to ordeals and when picking pace to grow up there are no chances left by my side. There is still an inclination to do anything and everything but all chances are just fading out.They are wearying out so badly that it makes me develop self hatred.
This could be a very head hearted discussion for some but for those who do understand my point of view they will know that iam actually right when I talk about all this. When dealing with such situations, people normalize it by saying “Life is all about this”. I have almost given in more than 20 years of my life all in search of truth and denial but nothing gained me a proper recognition. I can’t think about any of my achievements but I can count on my innumerable failures leading to my life long fears.I’m not sure if life bestows on me ample chances to even reconcile myself.
I don’t know want to put my memory to test but all I can say is my heart matters, my soul matters and my mind matters in each and everything.I didn’t know my clueless discussion could get this long but it might give a purpose and a challenge to another human who is mutually alive as much as i’m.
After all it hurts when I entitle it “Clueless…A Clueless discussion with alot of repercussions”.
Think and think again…
